I suppose being thousands of miles away from what I am now really connecting to as "my home" has really put into focus what it is that I want from a home. There is much to be said about the beauty of the Caribbean. At the moment the island is inundated with thousands of yellow butterflies migrating from Mexico to southern Belize. Breathtaking: yes, home: no.
As I sit thousands of miles away from my little home in Minneapolis, I find myself regretting not appreciating it more. It saddens me some to have finally have enough money to plant apple trees, but not be able to be there to tend to them. I enjoy the simplicity of my home, though that is something that I am very much enjoying in Belize as well; simplicity.
We are comfortably living in half the space that we did in Minnesota, and I still feel that I am surrounded by excess. Waking everyday to a warm sea, blazing sun and swaying palm trees reminds me of the flowing rivers, changing seasons and mighty oaks that I miss. I always felt that I could make friends wherever I go. I am finding that yes, I can, but I increasingly just really don't want to. I miss the friends I have and my family as well (though being a parent accounts for some of the separation too). Simplicity, nature, family and friends.
What I am able to do to create this is limited, but I feel attainable. I will be exploring those thoughts here and welcome any and all input.
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